Years ago I wrote a letter to myself and God…it was a committment letter, then it became a piece on my HomeComing to Spirit CD…Now its a you-tube.
I want to thank David Kobza for helping with the you-tube. He spent time and energy that he had little of since he has a life of his own. I so appreciate your time and energy to help me with this.
Check it out:
Words received in loving grace 2-15-97 by Mary
I have often not honored you, my beloved
Spirit. I have often lived by other people’s choices, rules, and beliefs that
have not always been of my essential truth. As I write this letter I am
reminded that all things have been to serve me— even in a misguided fashion or
at least in my perception, a misguided fashion. I have not always loved myself,
or my potential. I have forsaken me for the sake of others. I have judged
others without seeing the reflection they offer me. I judge my feelings,
categorizing them into good or bad. I have fallen hopelessly into self-pity and
self-aggrandizement. I have forgotten, I AM SPIRIT. I forget I AM a pure
reflection of the God-essence. I am not always still, to feel my presence or my
spirit. I have judged others, and in that judgment I have judged myself. I have
forgotten to breathe and to know the life within me. I have tried to control
events through my limited pictures, when I am just as able to open my heart to
the knowing that all things are as they are meant to be and that my highest
purpose is always being served. I have turned desire into possession, and have
lost the understanding of detachment. I have cursed God- cursed myself for
having to endure the pain and injustice at the thought of being alone—as I
denied my oneness, my connectedness, my wholeness as I am. I have denied the
divine within me, and in doing that the divine in all others. I have allowed
myself to be guided with one eye, or one “i” without realizing I AM ONE WITH ALL. I have shortchanged myself by being defended and guarded and blocked by my limitations. I choose to awaken to my wholeness now and forever. To be present with myself. To be in my truth – experience my feelings- release any and all beliefs that no longer serve my higher purpose. Walk each and every moment with the knowing that I AM SPIRIT. I AM SPIRIT, PURE, CLEAR, BEAUTIFUL, STRONG…I AM SPIRIT…I AM FILLED WITH AND THE FULL EXPRESSION OF DIVINE LOVE. I promise to be gracious with myself, accepting of myself, compassionate with myself. I promise to always look to see what is being reflected to me, and I commit to reflect my higher self to others. I commit to draw to me the appropriate opportunities and relationships that will serve my higher self. I commit to walking my path in trust and surrender and with the absolute knowing that I am safe and connected at all times, and with “the knowing” nothing less than my higher self is being served each moment of every day.